I totally get this film.U spend every minute of your life trying to figure out who u are,what's gonna become of u,what kinda way u'd like to live and so on,but it just feels like u're going nowhere.U start to recall how life seemed to be so colorful when u were a kid,and as u grew up u could literally feel that kinda spirit and quality u once owned are slipping away through your fingers.So u begin to try new things,the crazier the better.Well for a second u think u're fine now. But soon all those doubts come back again.Then what? I don't know 'cause I'm in this period,too. I've been doubting myself all along and I see no appropriate future in front of me.Things others take as the routine are simply not for me.But maybe that's how things would go:Before I can realize it I'm in my 30s,towards 40,and when I look back there's nothing.Nothing to tell that I'm something different.And u know what the worst thing is?I may begin to accept it.I may give up.So maybe just like this I walk to the end of the chapter.中间那段时间静止想起了《环形物语》的一集。Aksel病床上那个试图牵起嘴角笑一下的小细节直接哭了…满满地悲伤和无奈,试了两次都没成功只得作罢。